Sometimes being really good all the time feels really bad. But I’m on a journey. It’s my journey and I’m okay.
1. Enlightened (HBO)
Laura Dern and Mike White’s series was always an odd hybrid: part drama, part comedy; part satirical, part earnest; part introspective character study, part outward-focused whistleblower story. But it was always fully committed. In the second (and, sadly, final season), New Age crusader Amy Jellicoe (Dern) fought to expose corruption at the company she worked for while wrestling with her own issues after a nervous breakdown. At a time when ambitious TV focused mostly on ruthless men breaking bad, this was an unsparing but hopeful look at how much work it is to be good.
WHIP: You’re living here?
GAUNT YOUNG MAN: No. I’m dying here.
WHIP: What kind of cancer?
GAUNT YOUNG MAN: Fibro-mixoid sarcoma, soft tissue sarcoma. Very rare, God chose me. (laughs)
WHIP: God chose you? You believe in God?
GAUNT YOUNG MAN: Fuck yeah, bitch. You’re a stupid fucker if you don’t believe in God. As soon as you realize that the random events in your life are God … you will live a much better life. You spend your life believing that you have all the control over what happens. Bullshit. The plane you’re flying goes down? Out of your control. God gives you cancer. I have no control over that. Did God give me cancer? You bet your ass God gave me cancer. You think if I begged for cancer God would’ve given it to me? No … because I assure you I have begged for God to take it away – and guess what? I have no control over that. Can I get another smoke? What’s wrong with you honey? You’re beautiful, do you know that? Do I scare you? People either have to pretend they don’t see me or they’re drawn to me. It’s funny because people see me as being close to the other side — they feel like I have power or wisdom.They think I have the answers. Who knows? Maybe I do. Death gives you perspective. I lived my life so indecisive, in a haze. But now that I’m dying everything is so clear. It all makes sense somehow. I’m sorry but I can’t get over how beautiful you are? Look at your arm, you an addict? (she nods) What’s your name?
GAUNT YOUNG MAN: What do you do in the world, Nicole?
NICOLE: Not much. I was a photographer and then I was a masseuse and I wash hair at a salon sometimes.
GAUNT YOUNG MAN: Where is it? I’ll come by, I’m easy, you can wash my head. (she smiles). Do you think you’re going to die? (she laughs sadly). You’re not. You’re not going to die. (she cries). Don’t you love her?
WHIP: I don’t know her.
GAUNT YOUNG MAN: Bullshit, I do. Random act of God? Don’t think so. Survive a plane crash to meet a gorgeous girl in a stairwell. Fuck you, man. (pause). I’m sure they’re looking for me. My family just showed up from Utah. You know it’s bad when they start flying in. Every morning is special now, I’m so grateful. It’s a trip, wish I could bottle this feeling I have … about how beautiful every breath of life is … (he starts laughing; Whip joins him).
Johanna does not have time for this Hunger Games nonsense
she’s just one of those contestants who is constantly having her mouth, hands, and other parts blurred out on television.